Thursday, May 13, 2010

A Day of Ultimate Blurness!

At some point in our lives, there will definitely be a day of ultimate blurness and mine was TODAY!!! First of all i had to attend an interview which will determine my career as a teacher. Well, the day started of well at the beginning... This great start did not last long. As i arrived at the interview centre, my blurness and confusion started! When the secretary was going through my documents, one of her statements actually sent me into deep confusion. She said that she had to ask the interview officer whether I was qualified for the interview as my degree was from foreign university. I was perplexed! Why would a government scholar be barred from interview just because his degree is from a foreign university. Furthermore, it a Federal Scholarship... So I asked her, and she explained that there were a few cases where foreign universities were not recognized by the SPP eventhough the candidates were sponsored by the government... WEIRD!!!! Well, I was relieved that I was allowed to be interviewed! Fuh! When I went in for the interview, the officer asked me to introduce myself. He asked the question in BM and before I answered him, i asked him as to whether I could answer in BI. He told me that if he questions in BM, then I ought to answer in BM and if he questions in BI then i ought to answer in BI. Oh well, i thought to myself.... So, I answered him in BM... Somehow somewhere sometime throughout the interview, something happened which I am still confused now! The interview started in BM and as it progressed on, his questions were given in BI. This made the whole interview even weirder as till now, I am still confused as to whether I started conversing to him in BI or was it the officer who started questioning me in BI..... OR even maybe, I answered his BM question in BI which made him switch language.... CONFUSED AND BLUR!!! Not only this, the questions that he posed were like out of this world! Before the interview, I was told by his secretary that the questions would be basically on PIPP, NEP and also my work.... BUT, in the interview, the questions were beyond what I expected! one of the questions he asked was regarding the New Economic Model.... NEM I thought... Hmmmm.... Well, thank God that I did read about it in the newspapers and was able to answer his questions.... There were also some other questions which made me blur and confused throughout the whole day but I wouldn't want to go into details here.... Well, interview was over and i thought to myself, I shall take my own time and take a slow drive back. I even thought of getting some breakfast and stuff first before I head back but somehow my conscience wasn't clear! Something in me told me, GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!! I was like... huh? but, I am on official duty outside of school today...... Well, I went back without having to do anything that I planned to do..... I went back, helped out at the Public Speaking Competition that was ongoing in my school and also finished up the clippings of the May exam... My blur and confused point here was why did I go back to school? My colleagues were asking me why did u come back... u should have gone back or even so something else.... I was like yeah, that's true but somehow, somewhere in my heart, my conscience wasn't clear! I know my duty in school, I know that there were some other responsibilities awaiting me in school, and that was why I went back instead of loitering around. I was glad that I followed my conscience and voice in my heart! I was glad to be back, and was glad that I could contribute to my school! That's just school..... Then, when it was time to leave, I confidently left my camera bag with all my kits in school! OMG!!! I have not done this before! This is the first time that I ever leave my camera in school! My blurness and confusion is taking over me for the day and for real!!! Even at badminton just now.... I was blur and could not concentrate on my game.... What a blow! What a day! Confusion and blurness!!! But all the more I would like to thank God and also the people around me, you know who you are, despite my blurness and confusion, I did not forget all your encouragements towards me as I face my interview! Thank you! Thanks a lot!!!!